Haven't exactly been the most active on here the past ...week..couple weeks, whatever. Never said a happy holidays to everyone, so I'll say it now. I hope everyone's holidays went well and everyone got what you wanted. My Christmas was excellent. Got new filters and a new flash and everything. Hopefully at some point I'll stop being lazy and I'll upload a few shots I've taken with it. I also got a boyfriend for Christmas How many of you can say that. Jacob asked me out Christmas night..cute as he is I'm not sure how long that'll last. I'm not expecting too long. Needy people + Me don't mix well. They tend to get on my nerves.

That said, I've been in kind of a mellow mood for the past...while. I think the whole thing with my side is finally starting to get to me. It'll be the death of me, I swear. Doctors are too retarded to figure it out. And I'm starting a cold. Ugh. *headdesk*

So, tell me people, what'd you get for Xmas?

Seems like it's been forever since I've made an actual journal entry, even though it's probably only been a week or so. Either way, just wanted to get that old quiz...itunes..thing off my front page. Seems like I've been in a really 'meh' mood lately. I'unno, I guess I blame it on the constant frickin pounding waves of nostalgia. I dunno. Lately it just seems like there are so many things going through my head I can't keep track of them. I hate feeling like this. It's like I need to write them down or something but I cant keep hold of any one thought long enough to get it down. Damnit. It's times like these when I start to feel really alone.

On the brighter side of things [to keep anything from getting too D:], I got a reflector/light diffuser yesterday from mom. Decided I was going to experiment with it, and holy hell is that thing amazing. I might put up a picture or a few, so sorry ahead of time for the spam or whatever. I just really like the way I'm able to manipulate the lighting. Funny how I can get so excited over small things like that. Either way, the thing is cool as all hell and I can't wait to show you guys what I'm able to do with it. That is assuming anyone there cares enough to look at it.

There's a new...ish...Alice movie on ScyFy. I'm not sure if it's new but it's the first time -I've- ever seen it. Alice In Wonderland is my crack, so this is like..xD So amazing. It's a different take things and they made everything really cool. Not traditional, but still awesome. The Hatter is yummy. I would like to do him plz kthnx. It's kept me entertained at least. Watch it, people. It's on from like..7-9 MST. Not sure what that means for you guys but whatever.

Everyone, go pay ~LoveInDeathsArms a visit and tell her she's the most amazing person ever. a) Because she -is- the most amazing person ever and b) because she sent me the SexyDeath songs I've been wanting. xD Go love her, cuz I do.

...if that phone rings one more time I swear to god I'm gonna kill someone.

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle (Or Mp3 Player, or whatever you use)
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Tag at least 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from.

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY
Was It A Dream? - 30 Seconds to Mars

2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Cry - That Handsome Devil [[...no?]]

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Live Forever - The Rasmus [[*snort*]]

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Filth In The Beauty - The Gazette

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Lick Out The Pain - SexyDeath

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Via The End - Deathstars

7) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Whereabouts Unknown - Rise Against

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
The Kill - 30 Seconds To Mars [[...*snort*]]

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Lost Boys - The 69 Eyes

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Verum Aeternus - VNV Nation [[oddly fitting.]]

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Trinity Fields - Deathstars

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Hunt You Down - Saliva [[...cuz that doesn't make me sound twisted and sadistic at all.]]

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
A Chemical Rabbit - SexyDeath [[xDD Perfect.]]

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Worth Dying For - Rise Against [[most definately.]]

15) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Freaks - Girugamesh [[Jassmine, your Jrock is infecting my itunes. Get it out.]]

16) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
So, I Guess This Is Goodbye - I Am Ghost [[xD Please do.]]

17) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Sinner's Night(Misty Morning) - Negative [[...hm.]]

18) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Damn Me - Deathstars

19) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The Good Life - Three Days Grace

20) WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
The Rape of Virtue - Deathstars

21) HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Rumors of My Demise Have Been Greatly Exagerrated - Rise Against [[xDD Win.]]

22) WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Gone Forever - Three Days Grace

23) WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Pear of Anguish - John5 [[o_O;]]

24) WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Die Schlinge - Oomph! [[...Yes, A noose might.]]

25) WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
The Story - 30 Seconds to Mars

26) WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Cyanide - Deathstars

27) DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Heart Shaped Box - Nirvana

28) IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Life Less Frightening - Rise Against

29) WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Modern Death - Deathstars [[Stop raping itunes, Whip.]]

30) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS JOURNAL AS?
1000 Nails In My Heart - Negative

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

Ten things about me
1. The thought of being a photographer for a band [not just for concerts, but for the band themselves] gives me shivers. I hope I'm able to do it one day.
2. I'll probably end up as a psychiatrist.
3. I really wish I was better at drawing. I don't believe it when people tell me I'm good.
4. I have guilt issues. I will feel guilty about the slightest thing for a very long time.
5. I can make a sexual reference out of anything :] Try me.
6. I have a thing for drummers apparently.
7. It's very easy to get on my nerves.
8. I want to start up painting again. I miss it.
9. I'm proud of the person I am today. I'm happy being me.
10. It pisses me off when people doing enjoy life to the fullest. Your happiness doesn't depend on other people, you make it yourself.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:
1. I wish I was a better friend to you. I feel horrible because I know I wouldn't be a girlfriend and you deserve better. Please don't think I'm ignoring you.
2. I love you.
3. Go to hell.
4. Epic.
5. When are you going to move back? I miss our shenanigans.
6. oonps_
7. I'm sorry for letting her walk over me. I'll be better from now on.
8. I never asked to be your friend. There's a reason I haven't talked to you in a year and a half and every single word you say to me is just another reminder of how much I hate you and you're egotistical, backstabbing bitchiness. There's a reason I stop replying to you and your texts. If you can't remember the reason I hate you then you were never much of a best friend anyway. I'm glad you're out of my life. I'll make sure it stays that way.
9. Sorry for the rant. [yes, you. xD]
10. Kitkat?

EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1. Be sweet.
2. Incorporate songs or something into random romantic crap.
3. Chocolate. I'm still a girl, I love chocolate.
4. Respect me, respect my family.
5. Surprises.
6. Horror Movies + couch + blanket = <3
7. Dancing. I suck at it, but I still love it.
8. ...?

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. What will the future hold for me?
2. Not knowing what's wrong with my frickin side.
3. Muuuusiiiiiiiiiiiic<3
4. School finals.
5. What to draw.
6. Camera lenses.
7. Sleepyes.

FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment:<.b>
1. Jassmine
2. Sarah
3. Bri
4. Me 8]
5. /

FIVE songs that you listen to often lately:
1. Lick Out The Pain - SexyDeath
2. No Light - Deathstars
3. A Chemical Rabbit - Sexydeath
4. Kings and Queens - 30 Seconds to Mars
5. Arclight - Deathstars

30 Seconds to Mars = easily the best band I've ever seen in concert. The energy was amazing and everyone looked like they were having a blast. xD Lots of jumping around and screaming and I'm sure my voice will be gone tomorrow, but god it was good. Except for the fact that I'm pretty sure something in my side exploded. ow.

The waiting outside in 30 degree weather for three hours sucked pretty hard too. You know it's cold when people think you're crying, and it's just your eyes watering but you can't feel it. That's awkward. xD Me and =Cariallephotography had to cuddle for heat. It worked well, though. But once Zack got there and we all got inside we had a blast.

xD Everyone's got that DDD8 AND HE WAS RIGHT THERE story, but I feel the need to share mine too. Jared came down the center and we all thought he'd keep going, but instead he cut straight through the crowd o.o literally right in front of us, no one between us and him. xD It was amazing. His eyes are gorgeous. The whole concert was just...frickin amazing. I don't even know what else to say about it. Assuming I can get rid of the noise in some of the pictures and clean them up [had to use a point and shoot .-. eck], I might post a few.

Got to meet the guys afterwards and get the CD thing signed. As much as I frickin love Shannon [favorite for me xD;], I felt a little bad for him. It's awesome of them to hang around and do that sort of stuff, but he looked exhausted as all hell and just not happy xD; Poor guy...Tomo was just quiet. And cute. I wanted to cuddle him. xD Jared was just like 8D PEOPLE YES <3

Aaand that settles it for the night. xD Maybe I'll put up the autographs I got too, I'unno. Either way, bed for me now, I'm exhausted and had a fucking AMAZING time. Thank you to =Cariallephotography so much for getting that ticket for me. xD I love you so hard you rock my one-rainbow-toe-sock.